Fighting the pain

Well I went to bellingham, but got there only because i was suppose to go to anacortis and i missed the turn..lol I went with a friend that was a potential date, but I think she makes a better friend for me. I am thinking that maybe I am to picky, but I know that one day I find that special someone. My ex is very jealous that I am living the life she wants...lol That makes me feel better, she calls me complaining that her life sucks and that its not fair. I wont lie I do miss her, but there is no way she would ever want to be with me, personally i dont give a damn anymore. We did it to ourselves, we ruined it, we are the reason things ended!!! As for my running, it sucks i have been down three weeks almost now, but i have been going to the gym to workout and do the bike every other day. I noticed that i am not taking in enough calories and carbs. Its funny cause i remember my friend mo trying to load up on her calorie intake, i was like damn she eats more than me, but now i realize that she was smart about that and hence i have up'd my diet also. P.s. my roomie keeps giving me curves bars...i hope there is no estrogen in them...lol I ended up playing soccer last night and I was scared that i would not be able to run and kick like i wanted to, but i did pretty good last night, i was able to control the ball and fake out everyone, but this one girl got me good once, i guess she had been watching me very carefully and i as i went to fake her i backed up and slide the ball between her feet and turned back around and my ball was gone, she had stole it, as she passed me she smiled at me and said "nice moves" i kindly smiled at her and laughed, it was funny and she was so nice about it..lol Well i hoping to be able to run this weekend, but we will see!!